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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:03

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I never cut or harmed myself..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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This is soul school!.

My family never makes their pension either.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was scared of men, in general

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

How did my ex move on very fast?

But it wasn’t much.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

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Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

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All the time i was locked up.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

He knew the spot.

She found it foreign!.

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Im still living with it.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My life is so biszare .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was seconnd youngest,

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Was to survive, this bastard.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

So, i spoilt her more .

We all went to grammer schools

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I was very sick at this time too.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

(And it was in our own minds.)

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I write beautiful poetry .

And i lived it daily.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

As i do to all so called friends.?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I have no regrets .

Ive learnt so much.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was 9 years of age.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But ive been too sick for many years..

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I will be 64.

Would this be the day?

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But, we were locked up after school.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She wouldn,t have been !

When she asked me how she looked .

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She married twice! .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

So whats the point in blame.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Especially a lifetime of it.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He resisted the act ,that day.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

One cannot live in the past .

Put me off passion for life!!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I said to her

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

What did i know ?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I couldn’t, believe it.

She loved him until the end.

Comes on , in middle age.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We were not on the streets..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I did it because my mum asked me too!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I think the readers, may guess!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She was in good health!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

On the 31st of Jan this month .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I waited trembling.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I don,t even have a pension.

Who then, do I blame.?

It was going to be , some day.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!